Orgless

I'm already a little over two years in college, but I'm still orgless. There'd be different cases when I'd consider not joining one. Like, say, if I wasn't delayed for at least two years. I mean, I have a nice set of friends now and I would have been able to survive a year more without an org. But being two years delayed (or more, because I am deluding myself), is a different case altogether. Next year, most of my friends would have graduated. I wouldn't want to be alone. I realize, no matter how stoic I say I am, I'll always be a social animal. Maybe not as social as your next door neighbor, but social nonetheless.

Also, I was actually planning on writing something longer. The recollection that I used to have a blog filled with entries from my yesteryears just depressed me. All those memories are gone. :( My brain short circuits all the time and I have this funny tendency to forget important things but remember the most trivial of images. I rely on written memories.

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And, uhm, yay!

"I wanted so badly
to lie down next to her on the couch,
to wrap my arms around her and sleep.
Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex.
Just sleep together,
in the most innocent sense of the phrase.
But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend
and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and
I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating.
So I walked back to my room
and collapsed on the bottom bunk,
thinking that if people were rain,
I was drizzle and she was a hurricane."
- Looking for Alaska by John Green